This fear is very odd and unusual. It is not one of the common fears people have, like spiders or heights. It is quite disturbing, I shall say.
This fear will creep onto your shoulders all night and make your hair stand on end. It will make you conscious of the unpleasant air around you while you read this page. Now, let me describe this fear to you word for word.
Have you ever disappointed someone before? When you get that guilt all around your body, like heavy stones, weighing you down, and all you want is to be swallowed by the earth? That applies to one person here, and it may take a few days to a week or two to recover.
Now imagine if everyone around you is disappointed in you, and everywhere you walk, you see a frowning face looking directly at you. They’ve all lost their trust in you, even your loved ones.
You can’t bear to look at their faces anymore, or talk to anyone, and now all you have left is your slowly-morphing monstrous soul, and your self-devouring mind. You leisurely fall down onto your knees; you try not to let your body turn and twist on the ground, but it is too late, and you’re losing your marbles.
You also wonder when it will all end, and when is the time you’ll be freed, but you know that the answer is never, for you are already suffering silently on your very own.
That is my fear.
