Do you remember the day it all went downhill
The day when you stopped eating
Not because you weren’t hungry
But your body physically rejected food
The day sleeping became a choice you no longer wanted to make
You were tired but the bed felt like nails
Not because you weren’t exhausted
But because the voices wouldn’t rest
The day your stomach started to ache and never stopped
You always felt sick but not because of germs
No you were sick of the life you lived
The day you no longer felt human
You felt everyone around you getting distant
Not because they didn’t care
But because the effort felt like prison
The day hygiene felt like a chore
You hated the feeling of being dirty or sweaty
But you couldn’t get up and shower or brush your teeth
Because you began to view your body as a corpse
The day the mental battle began to take control
You stopped eating
You stopped sleeping
You stopped speaking
And wished to stop breathing
You remember all these things but you don’t stop to think
There are people who love you
There are people who noticed you change
There are people who blame themselves for letting you slip away
There is someone out there waiting for you to let them back in
They will do anything to see you smile again
Not the fake smile you press on your lips
But the one you forgot how to experience
Live for them if nothing else
Because without you they would be on the same ship.
